Just a thought in the evening

My inner circle is getting smaller as i grow up. And I don't regret it.

When I give the good basic manner i learned from my mother to my friends, such as say thank you whenever being helped by someone or say sorry whenever i do something bad, and apparently those friends didn't do the same things as I did, I feel that they don't appreciate a simple thing. How about the bigger thing? Will they appreciate it? And if the answer is no, it means that it's time to stay away from them.

When i give my hand, spend my time for some people when they're at the worst state, prioritize them and they just left me behind when I need a help eventhough they know that I need a help, then definitely I'll stay away from them.

When someone just take an advantage from me, you know the answer ya..

It's not that I'm not sincere when I do those things. It's just.. I feel so tired. I just don't want to dwell with the negative energy. And I deserve to think about my own self, right?

If we're talking about one of the 7 habits, which is 'seek to understand then to be unterstood', i think i've done it many times. But for how long?  If I always do that for the wrong guys, how much negative energy that will be absorbed by my heart? How much time i used to tend the people who actually didn't care about me? I can use that time for making myself happier, to upgrade my skill and ability, or spend it with the worthy ones.

So, i think it's okay to have a small inner circle, cause quality is more important than quantity.

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